One of the many possible ways
to describe a life
would be as a series of encounters
with various bodies of water.
Time spent in, on, under, or near water
interspersed with
the periods spent thinking about
where, when, and how to reach the next.
My first body of water,
of course,
was experienced as a zygote
in my mother’s womb.
And the last
— at least as I now imagine it —
will be in the form of
ashes,
cast over the Pacific.
In between,
I’ve been fascinated by
and privileged to know
many ponds,
tanks,
rivers,
bottles,
pools,
lakes,
streams,
buckets,
waterfalls,
quarries,
tubs,
mists,
oceans,
downpours,
and puddles.
As children we delight in water.
As we grow older,
water also becomes the matrix for
sport, relaxation, and romance.
My parents took me to the
Caribbean as a small child.
The photos from that trip
feel so familiar that
I can still feel the day.
Sitting on the beach next to the ocean,
smiling in the Bahamian sun.
I believe my happy memories of the sea
were carried forward
by those cherished, faded photographs.
Soon after that trip,
prior to my third birthday,
I had a vivid dream in anticipation
of a party.
At the party in my dream
we all sat at a round table
under the peach tree
in my backyard in
Westwood, New Jersey.
Everyone received a birthday gift.
We were served tea,
and at the bottom of the teacup
were iron figurines.
Somehow,
we each became very small
and the cups became enormous
as we dove down to the bottom
to find and retrieve our gift.
My friend Steve got a race car.
Rusty’s was a dog.
Mine was a black bear standing
on all four legs.
I loved that dream
—so much so that I tried to dream it again
every night before going to sleep.
And every time I saw a bear,
or a cast-iron car or dog,
or a cup of tea,
I thought of my dream.
That went on for months,
dreaming and daydreaming,
and wanting to dream
about diving
into a teacup
to retrieve an iron bear.